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...i really didn't want to think about it, didn't want to talk about it. but it just gets so hard sometimes i really really don't know what to feel. it was supposed to be another 4 more days before i'd be flying home, and now i really don't know when it'll be.

and the worst thing about it, you both don't care.

It's not so much the fact that i can't go home;

It's the fact that i have to pretend it's all fine.

It's the fact that what's important to you both is not me.

It's the fact that i have to change everything i was looking forward to because someone didn't feel like doing it.

but most of all,

it's the fact that sometimes all i want is abit of your time(s) and understanding,

but everything i do doesn't seem to get it.

how come it always has to be the one thing that i really want / need that has to screw up?

i don't know. i don't know anything anymore.

-lu