.p-e-p-p-e-r-.

..ok so exams are in 2 weeks' time..thank God it's only 2 papers..

- EAP this friday + next tuesday

- Drama is TOMMOROW (and yea zarine heng, u have to actually see it to believe it).

- and then full steam ahead for math +lit. paper.

..and there's a new inhabitant in my house. he's a furry ball of energy, complete with big guilty-looking eyes and a moist nose. And all he does is sleep, run around, bite anything that he can get his mouth around, eat, and SHIT. All around the house. But it's okay..he's got a truckload of foster mothers who coo and cuddle him, including one at home and in Perth..pictures will be available soon. haha.

-lu

.Hoochie.

..so thursday was really cool. went for drama, and we actually pulled the whole thing off without having to practice..and van and i had to like improvise coz i forgot the first line..yeesh. but it was good so let's hope it'll be great next week..den had m&c after break and ron showed us his bandage..i swear, i want his piercing blue eyes..=/

yijun asked me today if i ever considered if i could be gay..it was really hard to asnwer coz my 'yes' came out easily..den she made me realised that people dun usually consider it unless something tells u you could possibly be..ann sed it's coz i haf gay's clothing sense but i'm too straight to be gay..tsk..

..ok time to watch 'whose line is it, anyway' with yijun..love peeps!

p.s. - it's really ironic that the same 2 people who are telling me to 'grow up', 'get a life' and to 'be yourself and stop being so childish' are the same ones who are reading my blog every single day and tagging..haha..wad can i say? i provide the venue for the entertainment..and the dogs that come to bark dun dare to come up to me n say it to my face..oh well. -grin-

-lu

this.is.really.sweet.

-lu

.sweet.

they always say a friend gained is always better than a friend lost..if she/he's worth it. it's been a really satisfying evening..firstly the whole tagboard war became really childish and ironic, and plus pryvacy's gone (thanks people who have supported me. feels like i won some popularity contest haha) and i'll be the honourable one and say nothing else about it. but my post isn't about that..it's about a certain someone that i felt really glad i decided to talk to..

"..and at the risk of sounding cheesy answering your childish question, friends again...and let's stick to it this time?"

..it's not the prettiest quote..but it's just something both of us have to understand..=) yay.

-lu

.let's do this.

...this will be the last nice thing i'll do for you...

now fuck off

-lu

.Weekend weekend.

..oOooh so i can't smile? hahaha..well at least i don't hide behind cheesy names like 'me' and 'passerby' to try and take pot shots at people..and anyway, to 'me', i'm glad u take clara's side..coz it's true what they say, birds of the same feathers do flock together; coz ur just as petty and short-sighted as her. i don't have to listen to your insults coz their like u - empty.

..oh, and now that she made the first move, i can do my own bitching..isn't it so ironical that the same person who says "...get a life." read my blog+tagboard everyday? and haha molly, i think we do a really good imitation of life. wheeeeeeeeeee i really love life!! heh..come read my blog please because i have no friends! i love to go DFO but my dressing still sucks!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee dammit!! life is good!! i'm living well!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee..dammit!

haha it feels so good to be immature for once..ahhhh..i like i like. =) oh well, anyway stop being an asshole, lu..and get on with blogging..molly, adrain, lik hui, jun, ann and jee wei's over playing mahjong tonight..and i don't like my luck this weekend..i'm losing!! =( oh well, the laughters are all worth it..

ok time to go back to mahjong..love peops..

-lu

.Friday friday friday.

...so there they go, away from my table and into hands of teachers with chops and pens..

HOI essay - done
Psych essay - done
M&C presentation - done
EAP oral presentation - done
M&C essay - hahaha..it's not due for another 6 weeks?

..i really dowan to have to think about homework for awhile..it's koko black + mahjong tonight and just hang out with friends..=)

p.s. - thought for the day - i can't resist this, i really can't (sorry ann!)..your right, breastie..if one was really having a good life and "living well", i don't think one would have to actually write it out for everyone to know hahaha..pathetic. =)

-lu

.crazy 6am in e morning.

oh man the last time i woke up at 4:30am was last yr to go training..fell asleep holding the hp after tokking to miss yijun and lights on..gawsh din even know i was tt tired..anyhow, working on my psych essay now and i'm like 500 words over the limit (why do i hear ann going "ah see lah see lah..so lorh soh lah!" ?) anyhow was tokking to fatty on msn and he sent me this link that i tot was really sweet..ok, i know it doesn't describe me (yes, lise i can hear u too) but go read it..it's really nice.

http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html

-lu

.Elements.

>>>>edit.
sorry i just added this pic in coz i just got it from molly..me, phoebe and molly..ok read on.


..so last night Phoebe turned 18..molly and i bought her a bottle of riccadonna (ann's pride and fave champagne) and a yellow rose + we were like an hour late..thank God it wasn't a formal dinner..ate lotsa sinful chocolotey stuff and eggplant (haha only i seemed to like them) and talked to jee wei (my neighbour that stays in the block opposite mine and we never tokked much till last night) and joanna..forgot to bring my camera so hadta steal pics from molly..oh well, it was a lovely way to spend a tuesday night..=/

-lu

.hrmmm.

so monday's over in a flash..and tuesday (a.k.a. EAP presentation) is coming! in exactly 2 hrs and 24 mins time..

nations cry holy,

angels cry holy..

..i believe that what goes around comes around (a.k.a. karma)..and that's why i've decided to embark on my one-good-deed / day "mission"..or even more if i can help it.

We all cry Holy is the Lord.

..so from today onwards, it's going to be that way..

I'm taking up my cross

I'm following you

All for the glory of Your name.

-lu

.Sunday.

Sundays are..what can i say?..their always nice..they hit the spot, and they leave one feeling awfully good for the next few days..

or maybe it's just me..haha..but who care? church always makes me feel better..and i'm sticking with that formula..

anyhow, this weekend has been pretty fruitless..completed HOI, did some hwk..started on psych..just.want.the.next.week.to.be.over.and.done.with so that i can go out on all the dinners tt i owe ppl..

Bright and morning start,

Great I am you Are,

Jesus, Jesus..

anyhow, today at dinner ann, molly and i were talkin about the past and everything..and i really think that no matter wad happened, ann..i guess we could say we did have a really good time even though we were young + crazy+ stupid..and i'll always look back at those memories and smile..

King above all kings,

Creator of all things,

Jesus, Jesus..

Alright..time to go bathe and do psych essay..goodnight everybody. oh, and POHIE!!! this is supposed to be really big so that she can see (she claims she's blind so can't see whenever i say thanks to her on my blog)...thank you for being everything u are, denise poh something-something!! and for the nice words too..hopefully ann and i will go down to perth in sept. and see u..love!

btw, breastie..if your reding this..i miss you like hell too. =)

"Friends, you can never have too many of them.."

-lu

.A tribute to a fellow acsian.

..was with ann that day and she told me about a senior who passed away in a car accident..and even though i dun know him and never will..just tot i'd post a respectful tribute to a fellow schoolmate..

i don't know why you had to go, but i'm sure you're at a better place now, wherever you are. God bless and keep you.

..i guess life sometimes is just that fragile..like you can think that you have your whole life planned out only to have it suddenly cut short. Like someone said before,"we all live to die."..i don't know..i guess that (pardon the cheesy words) that's what life's all about: living fully. stop regretting, stop looking back and saying what ifs, and stop procrastinating the things you really want to do in life.

..dinner tonight with u-lynn was (really) entertaining..but that's all you people need to know. never really had dinner alone with that girl before, though..-scratches head-..and we could talk really well so i guess we DO have things in common! (huh, ulynn huh huh? -wink-) besides our surname, that is..haha..okay i'm rambling but yea, miss lee! if you see this..let's make this gossiping/rambling/shocking each other session a weekly ritual! haha..

..ok time to polish my HOI essay and start working on my psych..

-lu

.osh kosh b'gosh.

..i know i've been saying this, but thanks again to everyone who tagged an encouraging word, or called or sms to provide the encouraging word, or even a stranger who came up and said,"i read your blog! cheer up..your okay." it's just things like that that make me wonder why i even bothered getting sad in the first place..

yes, this world may stink at times..but really, it's filled with people who come to you when you need it.

anyhow, this song is running in my head and my iTunes..so i shall put it up..it's really beautiful.

and ann dearie, your right. i have to learn not to let the anger poison my words..thank you.

James Blunt - High

Beautiful dawn,

Lights up the shore for me.

There is nothing else in the world,

I'd rather wake up and see with you.

Beautiful dawn,

I'm just chasing time again.

Thought I would die a lonely man,

in the endless night.

But now I'm high

Running wild among all the stars above.

Sometimes

it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn, (Beautiful dawn)

Melts with the stars again.

Do you remember the day when my journey began?

Will you remember the end of time?

Beautiful dawn,(Beautiful dawn)

You're just blowing my mind again.

Thought I was born to endless nights, until you shine.

High

Running wild among all the stars above.

Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?

Promise me tomorrow starts with you

Getting high

Running wild among all the stars above.

Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

High

Running wild among all the stars above.

Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

-lu

.Moving on.

..whao my tagboard's kinda become like a warzone..even my dad came in! haha..thanks to everyone who stood up for me..firstly to lise, who made it short and sweet. bern, for that really nice set of tags + brave words even though u have so much on ur mind now..sherlyn, happy birthday, girl! sorry i din get to wish u..sumhow lost ur number sumwhere..but i'm missing u!!! davis, deh-vid ah! i miss you already..thanks for the thoughtful tag too..and last but not least, miss lee u-lynn (see? no "even" this time, we're not all that close but thank you for listening.

oh, and dad too..dis makes me feel like a big baby, but thanks dad.

so anyway, tomorrow's lunch with ann darling..she's got a box of krispy kreme for ME..haha..all e way from narre warren..that girl loves me. (hopefully she'll read this before tmr so i wun need to pay her haha)

..yesterday at church i did something good..and this morning i did something good for steph too. maybe passerby is right..i do need to grow up. for the mysterious person out there, thank you for the harsh words. u may not understand wad i went through, but i'm sure there was a reason for you to say wadeva u did. ..and e lovely girl made my day too. so i am happy.

Bright and morning star,
Glory of me you are,
Jesus, Jesus.

King above all kings,
Creator of all things
You are,
You are.

-lu

.There is Love In This World.

So these past 2 days have been so much better..i must thank everyone for all the concern u all provided..even though sum of u didn't know wad went on. Even dad came in with an email..thank you for the love. It's nice knowing that there are lotsa friends out there who can actually be the support element when i need them. From new ones like molly (ok lah not so new..but just be happy lah!) and steph..zar, ann, even u-lynn..thank you so much for that encouraging word or advice..even to dear map..thanks for showing that little bit of love! haha..and to the breastie back home and bern..i will WILL tell you 2 what happened once i get the time, i promise.

..oh, and to passerby, whoever you are. fuck off. stop hiding behind an anonymous identity and dun make judgements on my life. if your a stranger, i don't need your opinion.

but enough of that. i just have one last closing word for you. good luck. you got wad u wanted - just the 2 of you in your little world. the noble couple. now let's see how long you two last. and i hope your good at dealing with loneliness and tears. coz their coming for you. i've wasted enough time and strength on you.

..now back to where life means something, and real friends.

-lu

why.

why build up hopes so that u can be disappointed?
why trust so that u can have it broken?
why hug when ur gonna get smacked?
why?

why piece together something that wants to be broken?
why try when it's you who's the only one pushing?
why cry when no one senses ur tears and sadness?
why?

..honestly, don't answer that..
coz anything u say just makes things worst.
coz whatever i say is either sarcastic, accusing or ranting.
i picked u up, pulled u through and was there for u when u needed me.

but where are u now when i need u?

to you i was nothing but sumone to fill your loneliness.
and the moment u had a better choice, u walked out.

and for that,
i'll never trust sumone so easily again.

i wish i could just hate you so that i won't wish you would turn back.

and because of that,
i'll never let sumone come so close ever again.

..promises are like words, easily formed and flowing, but fucking empty..

-lu